It's been a disappointing day.

Not for really anything important, just little things.  Which don't really impact life too much, but it's still a bit sad.

First, how long is this week going to be?!  It feels as though I've lived a month in the last two days.  I'm sure it's because I'm anticipating the weekend and the plans I have, but ugh.  It's so very hard to wait it all out.

Second, doesn't it suck when you find out a band you really really really love is playing in your city and you get incredibly excited and you're like fuck yes I'm going to buy tickets right fucking now, and then you find out they're opening for a band you really don't like, a band that attracts a lot of people you don't like and is actually pretty big time so it drives up the ticket prices to juuuuuust above what you think it's worth if you're only there for the opening act. Yeah, it kind of sucks a lot.

Third, my favourite drink at Coffee Bean is the second most unhealthy in its category.  I obviously know an ice blended drink isn't healthy, and it's not like I'm drinking it trying to be healthy.  But it still kind of blows to know your favourite is kinda bad, so you'll have to revert back to Mochas even though they are not as tasty as Hazelnut.

Fourth, my favourite dress that I've worn to pretty much everything because it's cute and comfortable decided it didn't want to stay its actual size as it went through the dryer (and yes, it does say Tumble Dry Low, so it's not like I accidentally ran it through!).  It's not small like a doll's dress, but it's just slightly smaller than what it was so it's slightly not as flattering and now does not like to hold my chesticles in as much as it did.  Luckily, the dress is still at Target (and on sale for $12 now!), so I am hoping to be able to go purchase another--and will not make the mistake of drying it.

Not the best example, but only pic I could find of the dress.

So you see, small disappointments that don't really matter, but still make me go "boo."

As a quick aside, I advise everyone to be cautious while working on their laptops in public places.  Because maybe you'll open up your Google Reader to start crackin' on reading blog posts, and click on one of the blogs you follow and something like this may appear, and you may scar the little children sitting at the table directly behind you--though if they're snooping on my screen, I can't say they didn't deserve it! (NSFW, guys, if that wasn't going to be obvious):

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Miracles, the debate of oatmeal raisin cookies versus health insurance, and oh yeah, I'm wearing a dress!

gross. i hate oatmeal raisin cookies.

MY GOOGLE READER IS DOWN TO 16 NEW POSTS!

You don't understand.  This is gigantic.  This is phenomenal.  This is unheard of.  For the past month and a half, I'm not sure I've managed to keep it under 80.  I get so close, I read and click and comment (sometimes, but not nearly as much as I should) and laugh and twice cried and even done the dreaded "Mark As Read" a few times--but inevitably, something happens where I have to turn in for the night before I can finish and when I wake up it is once again back to its astronomical levels (may be an exaggeration).

The thing is...I hoard my posts.  I have a select few favorite bloggers who I know will write a post I enjoy every time--so I get greedy and reserve all their posts to a later date so I know that after a few crap posts and sometimes a few ok ones, I will have amazing ones to get to.

The problem with this method is that combined with my inefficiency of reading any blogs, I haven't read a fair few posts from my favorite bloggers.  And I fear that they think I don't enjoy their blogs as much as I do since no comments come.  Most likely they hardly even notice, but it still woes me to think that perhaps some person is thinking, "Oh no, that Charlie Browniest girl used to comment so much...I wonder if she still reads?"   Rest assured, favoritest bloggers, I do!  I do!

I'm not saying that if you have received a comment lately, you're not one of my favourite bloggers.  Sometimes I'll randomly go to a favorites blog and comment, sometimes I see a link through Twitter and head on over, sometimes I'll see your comment at the 20sb forum and mosey on to your blog, sometimes I'll suddenly want to go see that person's blog so I git'on over then thurr.  It's really just all a big mess.  However, in the past three days I was able to catch up on a lot of people's posts--take Nic for example, who is one of my favorites.  I had 11 unread posts from him.  Eleven!  But I was able to play catch up, and he had a whopping 4 comments in one night.  As a warning to some people, that may happen to you sometime soon.  The 16 left in my reader are all specifically saved for last, so...it'll come.  Eventually. 

The only other order of business for the night is this: finding health insurance is pretty damn high on the "suckage" list.  In fact, it may overtake getting three cavities filled in one dentist visit and driving 74 miles to return something and you realize you forgot your receipt.  I'm not sure it edges out Dane Cook or biting into a cookie thinking it is warm chocolate chip only to discover it is oatmeal with extra raisins--but it sure gives them a run for the money.  Since my health insurance effectively ends tomorrow (the 19th), my father isn't allowing me out of the house until I find some.  Seeing as how I have no job and cannot pay for this insurance, I'm not sure how long my prison sentence will end up being.

But seriously, I feel like there needs to be a course on insurance terms for the laymen.  It would probably be the worst class in the world, and realistically I probably wouldn't have taken it in the first place.  But still!  Deductibles?  Copays?  40% of $5530 only after yearly cost has been met except on three services? HSAs and PPOs and HMOs and HIA and Annual OOP Max...it's like the dreaded text talk, only worse!  I mean, if someone were to say to me "omg wtf u kno?! imho, he sux 2 but thx 4 telln. ttyl"* I WOULD GET THAT.  I mean, I will want to shoot you too, but at least I would understand. 

And then I have to consider my medical history and my life and figure out the sacrifices I want to make.  Do I think I'm going to get some sort of STD in the next year?  If so, do I think that would be more important than if a kidney stone suddenly popped up again?  Do I think a bone is going to randomly pop out of my shoulder or will I get punched in the nose anytime soon?  Is there any possibility I am going to ingest that toxic poison?  Will I get testicular cancer?  I mean, I know I'm not a man, but with evolution these days and the weird processed foods entering my body, can one ever really be sure (and if by some weird happenstance this occurs, does your insurance cover this?)?!

It's all just so unclear.

But bright side (no pun intended), the weather has been absolutely fabulous the past two days!  Actually, it was downright hot.  90 degrees on Tuesday, 84 degrees on Wednesday...it was glorious.  Aside from the sweating and the being completely unprepared so I was wearing UGG boots for half of Tuesday.  But today I actually broke out a fun little dress to wear!  The temperatures are unfortunately supposed to drop again (to 64 degrees...ahh, I love you Southern California), but at least I can positively say that Spring is getting ready to come on in.  And she is most welcome.

*this pained me to write.  PAINED.

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