Best of '09 Blog Challenge: Challenge

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Best of 2009 Blog Challenge, Day 9: Challenge

The obvious would be to choose my graduation from college this year, but it never really felt like a challenge to me. It was something that I was supposed to do after working 4 years. So the next thing I thought of was the challenge of all my Italian friends leaving to return back to Italy after their year of exchange student studying--it was tough having all my friends that i'd become so close to leave me behind. But in my life, I'm used to it; it has definitely been awhile since that's happened, but it is standard. Then I was 90% sure my biggest challenge this year was when I chose to take the job of web designer that was offered to me; it was the first real job I'd had, full time, doing something I had to train for and learn. All in addition to really living on my own away from my family paying my own rent and bills.

But honestly, my biggest challenge is right NOW. The time after I was laid-off, after I've just moved back in with my parents after 4 years away, when I have no idea where my life is headed. I'm at a point where my future can probably be whatever I want it to be, but at the same time I have amazing parents who are supporting me as I get my head around the fact that I'm no longer a student and letting me take the time I need. The time I want.

My challenge right now is living. Figuring out who I am, what I will become, how I want to become it. The challenge is throwing myself into a life that I have no idea what holds for me. The challenge is the fact that I am a 22-year-old girl with ambition and heart and a desire to write, a Bachelor's degree in one hand and absolutely nothing in the other. My biggest challenge of the year is to acknowledge what a blank slate I am right now, and accept it while not letting the fear of what could and will be written stop me.