Thursday, October 14, 2010
You know that point in blogging where you've been gone so long, you don't really know how to come back? It's like...do I acknowledge the absence? Do I just post as though no time has passed? A little of half?
I'm totally there.
I'm getting worried about NaNoWriMo. Not even the fact that I will (hopefully) be working and have less time, I'm more worried about the creative aspect of it. Last year, I was all about this thing. I had so many story ideas that I was jumping at the chance to get down 50k words for any and all of them. That's why I managed to hit 52k in one story, and 35k in another at the same time. The creativity and inspiration carried on for awhile, but...it slipped. And at this point, it's pretty much gone. I have a few story ideas floating, as always, but nothing that I'm totally interested in banging out 50k for. And, it's 50,000 words - that's a commitment nothing has become worthy of.
I don't know what to do about that.
I went up to Irvine last week and got to see a few of my friends who I haven't seen in over a year. And it was absolutely amazing. They're all Italian exchange students, and most had returned to Italy after their year studying at my university. A few of them have come back to study for their PhDs, so I managed to go up and have lunch with a group of them. It really made me miss those who haven't returned, but it was lovely seeing the others. It means a lot that they still care about me so much, even if I was only really friends with them for 4 or 5 months. Italians make the world a better place, in my opinion.
That same trip really upset me, though. It's kind of odd how that worked out, but being back on campus was terrible. Not only did it feel awkward returning because I have such crappy memories of college, but it was crazy to see all the construction done. It's like a brand new campus, and I hate that I feel so out of place. I mean, obviously I still know the campus is set in a circle and Humanities is right across from Engineering and there used to be a tire swing in the center of the Park. Those things don't quite go away. But seeing the new Humanities building, and the entire new Second Year Housing buildings, and this massive parking structure at the ARC...it was just too weird. The place I called home for 4 years isn't anything like it was, and that disturbs me slightly.
By the way, did you know that when you have over 1000 unread posts in Google Reader to get to, the number stops? It just says (1000+). Good to know.
I have to admit though, despite extreme exhaustion and general listlessness towards life, I've been craaaazy busy. Lots of celebrations and outings and general doings going on. Brother's girlfriend's birthday happened, so we did it up big (ie, bday party at her house that included an egg hunt. Yep.)...a friend graduated again so we partied downtown...went to a concert that was shameful mostly and surprisingly fun...hit up Hash House, the most awesome breakfast joint ever--where the flapjacks are literally bigger than a pizza--and got caught in rain...and got crunk with drag queens.
What? You want pictures? Why SURE!
Gotta admit, Jonas Brothers were...I mean, it all sounded right. Pretty much no surprises in their performance, except I didn't think Joe Jonas could get any womanlier...and then he took off that jacket from picture 1 and revealed that the black makes-me-look-like-i-have-cleavage shirt is actually an oddly fitted tank top and I was effectively proven wrong. But so it goes, right? So. It. Goes.