Friday, April 23, 2010
I'm having a bit of a writer's block.
It's not that I can't think of anything to write though--in fact, it's pretty much the opposite. I feel like there are a lot of thoughts going on in my head, and I want to write about it, but I can't really sit and sort. My head feels like it's overflowing, and as much as I want to compartmentalize it and sort it all out, everything keeps blending. The moment I try to focus on one thing, I can't stop the thoughts about others.
I want to write about all the notes I found from 5th grade that I passed in my classes and how I'm pretty sure I didn't actually pay attention. I want to tell you about how I was cleaning out the boxes in my closet that resulted in me finding those notes. I want to discuss how I feel like I'm being crushed by a strange mix of uselessness and overqualification. I want to delve into my wanderlust and all the places I want to go and trips I want to take and things I want to experience. I want to tell you how my heart hurts every day because I always feel like I'm away from home. I want to tell you how I'm constantly surprised at the poor choices I make, even though I know I know better. I want to tell you how grateful I am to have friends (real life and bloggy) who stay with me despite my flakiness and ridiculous avoidance issues. I want to tell you why I'm at the library all the time. I want to tell you about the six books I'm reading right now. I want to tell you about a boy. I want to tell you how odd it is that I hate peanuts and regular M&Ms but I love Peanut M&Ms; and I equate it to how I hate green tea and lemonade but really like green tea lemonade.
But I can't. I'm stalling, and I have false starts, and every time I try all I do is Ctr+A the entire paragraph and hit backspace and try again.
So instead, I am going to turn back to watching this old Buffy rerun and my spoonful of Nutella; and leave you with three screencaps of three movies I love that I ran across on weheartit, all of which mean something to me.